Discovery

Discovery

I am always looking for you.

Is there Grand Central Station in Limbo?

If so, I am standing in it.

I am always looking for you.

I thought I glimpsed you a couple of weeks ago.

But I dismissed it.

I want to see you so much, I just thought

I saw you everywhere.

Then last week, I was sure I saw you.

Tonight, I am afraid I have found you.

It was as if I had picked up a piece of ice and

Gripped it so tightly that I couldnโ€™t tell

If it were hot or cold.

I should name this piece “Pandora.”

But love opened the box, not she, and–

And now I have to think of Him.

Of you next to him in our bed.

Of him holding you with what should be my arms.

And you making his coffee, not mine

And kissing him off to work, not me.

All this and so much more.

Earthquakes couldnโ€™t open a larger fault

Than the one my mind imagines and my soul knows.

I should be in tears, but all I can think is:

“And so it goes,” and

“Keep passing the open windows.”

ยฉ Anne 2008